evepostappleOnce upon a time, there was a woman named Eve, who, unable to resist the luring temptation of a fragrant orchard, took a bite of forbidden fruit from the tree of knowledge. Perhaps Eve was bored. Perhaps she was ovulating and had a desperate craving for something sweet. Perhaps life in the little garden was becoming stressful or claustrophobic. Perhaps she felt out of control or lacked passion in her life and in order to numb her emotions or soothe herself from Adam's lack of attention or his ambivalence in starting a family, she chose to indulge. Perhaps Eve was an emotional eater. But as Eve soon discovered, neither the bite, nor the whole fruit fulfilled her as she had hoped. Not only did she realize she was naked but that she had contempt for the way she looked. Perhaps Eve suffered with body dismorphia. Eve tried to stop eating the forbidden fruit and eventually avoided eating altogether but that didn't work and she ended up eating until she could no longer breathe. The point of this is that Eve lost her intuitive ability to nourish herself. She no longer had balance in her life and was willing to do any and everything to get that back.

Maybe Eve didn't exist. Maybe the stories that were told are not as important as the stories we tell ourselves.

This blog is dedicated to creating new stories based on the philosophies of whole body nutrition, self-love, intuition, fitness and yoga.

In my journey I have sought to uncover the knowledge and balance which have brought me to a greater awareness of health and this is what I wish to share with you.

About Me

I am a holistic nutritionist, certified yoga instructor, athlete, healthy living chef, and published writer. I have spent the last four years of my life rebuilding all aspects of myself after recovering from an eating disorder. Follow me as I continue to eat clean, train hard, and discover balance mind, body and spirit. zainsaraswatijamal.com


    Day 2 Photoshoot Prep: Accountability Post

    It all started off a bit rough, I was emotional and I knew it plus I woke up slightly later than usual thus breakfast was pushed back by 30-minutes but was I going to let that interfere with the plans for my day?  Hell no. 

    Morning meditation followed by writing in my gratitude journal shifted my consciousness immediately.  I lit a sandalwood incense (out of my special collection from a sacred Shiva temple in India) and offered it to my alter with the intention of being purposeful.  Let me deliberate what I mean by purposeful, I do not mean task oriented but love oriented.  I have found that it is important for me not to dwell on myself when I am feeling emotional but to look beyond and see what I can do to make a difference.  

    If you want to be extraordinary, look beyond yourself and take on a bigger issue

    Thus, each day, I pray to remain open so that I may say, do, or act in away that helps, heals or inspires another.  Today was no different, only the prayer resonated even deeper than usual most likely due in part to my more vulnerable emotional state.

    The emotional body always intrigues me.  No matter how things are actually going, emotions have the power to shift, tailor, and wield entire experiences as reigns to a wild horse.  Yoga teaches us, neither are we our bodies nor are we our minds, meaning that it is the ego that creates emotions and thoughts to deepen our illusion of reality.  In order to be in bliss or live from a place of pure love it is essential for us to first become aware of and then work to shed our egos thus revealing simply the truth of who we are. I feel fortunate to have the freedom to explore and understand my emotions as they have guided me to truth during times when I have chosen not to react to them.

    Deep thoughts before breakfast right?  I know. This happens with me.  It’s tangent city…sorry.

    Breakfast was stellar, truly my favourite indulgence of the day, this morning’s consisted of Zain’s Chia Pancakes (I made them Chocolate Chia by adding 2 Tbsp Cacao Powder + 1 Tbsp Cacao Nibs) and a cup of Happy Kombutcha Tea.  Hindi Zahra was rocking my world (the music always goes up quite loud once my man has left for work) and I spent the next hour before Kundalini yoga practice posting and skyping with overseas friends.

    I practice Kundalini at least once per week.  I find that this practice rids me of all sorts of energy that has found places within my body to breed.  This accumulation comes from everyday life but the practice of Kundalini is so powerful that I can literally feel my vibration and electromagnetic field expanding in a matter of seconds.  In those 75 minutes, I feel pure joy and elation as well as profound connection and surrender.  For my yogis out there, I know it becomes a mandate to practice what you are used to; however, if you have never tried a Kundalini class, I highly recommend it.  

    Today, I left class feeling open and knew that I would need to be gentle with myself yet again.  To me, being gentle with myself consists of staying close to home, not expending unnecessary energy (I will deal with tedious things on another day) and really looking after myself with delicious meals cooked with love, my favourite music, some important work, and perhaps a good, old film.

    So after yoga, I treated myself to Zain’s Ferraro Rochet Chocolate Pudding - seriously delicious stuff - and had a few hours of work to catch up on (photo editing and writing a meal plan for a client etc) which all went really well, I felt focused and knew that I was working from my heart.  

    That is what I love so much about what I do.  Helping others become healthier has to be up there with some of the most rewarding work that exists on the planet. What I do now is such a contrast to the days when I worked in business, there was never this sort of feeling nor the reassurance that I am doing exactly what I am meant to be doing.  

    Whether I create a new recipe that makes someone’s journey to health a little sweeter or easier, or watch as of of my client’s tries on a pair of jeans that has not fit her in 20 years, there is an indescribable feeling of joy.  I know that helping others has been instrumental in my own healing process as well and it has given meaning to everything that I have gone through in my life.

    Whoa…enough with the heavy duty post…

    Savoured one of my Vegetarian Warrior Bowls for lunch and then set out for my run just as the sun was peaking out.  I was not sure how my body would be feeling as it was my first run of the week but as I got going, I could feel a powerful momentum driving me forward and really felt each foot on the pavement.  I was extremely focused on my run and was actually hitting it pretty hard, it turned into a new personal best time for the 14km, which was totally unexpected and equally as awesome.

    I felt fierce and my strength resurfaced.  It’s amazing what a solid run in the fresh air can do to invigorate the body, mind and spirit.

    Some PB&J crepes followed by a hot oil hair treatment and long bath was exactly what I needed to wrap up my day and I have been enjoying some quality downtime with my man all evening.

    Looking forward to tomorrow…time for rest.

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